I am thinking how Life would have been if I did not know what I know now. Some people wonder why we do so much push so hard for God and for others. Isnt it easier just to live your own life and be happy with it? Isnt it easier to just attend service once in a while and maybe get fun with people from church once in a while. Why the constant stuggle to love others and forgoing our own comfort and going out of the way just to make someone else feel good. Sometimes such questions comes to mind and I realise one thing is that it is about becoming more like Christ. He gave his all. He was God and he forgo every thing he had. Coming as a human, was stripping him of all his splendor and great power. Dying as a man on a cross, was inflicting pain on his body and torturing him to death when he the creator of the world willing to humble his ownself to do such a thing. This thing about humbleness. I learn alot from my Jesus and my mentor. Humbleness takes character and only great people have that. Jesus had undeniable power of healing, of commanding nature, walking on water, doing the supernatural yet he choose to stay up on the cross. I am pretty sure he could have come down from the cross or even not suffer a single scratch when the soldiers slash him with their torture tools but yet he held back and did not do the supernatural. I think my Jesus loves me enough to die for me and I think my life was never the same after he came in and told me that he lives in me. He constantly tell me that he loves me and never fails to affirm me with his love and his power that can do anything. I love my life, I love my church and the future is not bleak but exciting.